August 17, 2020

 

Dear Diary,


So fuck it


His name his sgt


E5 marine????


No airforce??


What?


I dont get it


He never told me his first name 


Stop speaking so nicely?




Look all your giving me is a first name 


He never told me what it was because I had to figure out how to say this cuz too many pills, damnit I can think but cant communicate 


Fuck 


How do I ask for a status report 


About sgt noe...how do I ask this weird nurse about a picture in my head???


Fuck Im really crazy 


Cuz im like nurse


If you know about this


Just tell me about it


Say whatever you want


I promise to just listen 


Cuz yeah I deserve this


Damn this is scary


Ouch that hurt


Ok ok, lets take a break


Why do I feel a bitch slap


But why did I just feel too much pain


When he says it in such a kind and gentle way?


Fine gotta sleep on it


Im just scared that if I close my eyes


Ill wake up and its like he no longer exists?


Fuck it I heard his voice whisper from somewhere


"Please promise me you'll sleep tonight?"


I mean why is this reality such a huge painful truth bomb so fine 


But I need to calm down with a simple bedtime story cuz so meta



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