Fake Smile July 13

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Dear Diary, 

It's hard to keep my smile brightly in front of my students. It's hurt when i want to be alone but I can't. Which means my life must continue.... 


Being teacher is not easy. 

I have to be careful to share anything about my private life... I can't write any status in WhatsApp that show my true feeling like complain about my day. 


I know I m sad right now. I want to share my feeling with my friends in social medias,  but I can't... 


I have an image as teacher. And that's hard.

I want someone say... 

"Are you okay?"

"Everything is gonna be okay"

" You disserve better than him"

"Let's hang out and forget everything"


Only my sister care but I know she get trouble with her univ.. and I can't be selfish for asking her to here with me.


This pain... Is really trouble my day. 

I m to tired for cleaning my room. I think I can make myself busy. 

Sadly I can't.

I want to cry but I have duty for tutoring class this evening. 


Sad... But... I have to wear my mask again. 


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Jul 13, 2020 · 59 views

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In HeavenJul 14, 2020

Yeah, it's like a front-end job. So many eyes are watching you. And especially these are kids, ypu cannot breakdown in front of them, no matter what you are feeling. I have seen a few teacher crying in my class. We were young back then, but now it feels bad for them...

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khayceeJul 13, 2020

so I realized some of my teachers are just faking a smile. I feel bad for them

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AyJul 13, 2020

Yes... It is. But that one of the risk being a teacher. Keep smiling brightly in front of my students 😊

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ScarJul 13, 2020

Id never know how that feels but my brother says it hurts.

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AyJul 13, 2020

Teachers should protect their image... Like hide their pain and weakness. That what i know since i have students

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ScarJul 13, 2020

Hm. I never knew some teachers have it this bad.

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