Dear Diary, my heart is so heavy, its just broken, everything is broken.. i miss being loved and adored by you, bc i really dont want anyone, i dont eben want to see anybody else, all i want is you, always. i really dont know how to continue, this pain kills me, i could cry every sec of the day. sometimes i wake up screaming crying, cant even get up, its the worst waking up with tears and wanting to keep dreaming, 'cause when are you so close to me again, thats the only time i want to be alive, with you, only with you. missing you hurts unexplainable, its like an organ got cut off of me and i just keep bleeding love for you, i cant breath, i cant be, i dont wanna be. without you life feels so freaking senseless, i miss you so. so. much. whats there to live for?