May 31, 2020

I'm lonely and sad. I want to make friends, but the only people I'm interested in talking to, really, are male and the conversation always goes sexual, even with people halfway around the world. 

I want to find a boyfriend but it feels like it'll just be the same old shit, heartbreak. 

I want to cuddle with someone and feel loved. 

I have more thoughts about this, but only nonsensical fragments come to mind. I'm tired even though I slept plenty.