Dear Diary,
Didnt updatr yestetday cause its just me talking about the same sht so ill talk about something else.
Started getting into skin care agin. Cause of wuarantine all stores have been closed and i havent been able to restock my skin care items. Luckily online shopoing is still allowed. I got one of my items yesterday and gotta say ive been doing great.
When i entered premed (i in medical laboratory science by the way) i first wanted to be a dermatologist. Along the way i lost my passion for it thinking maybe i wouldn't be able to achieve it. Because of that i decided to choose becoming a medical technologist which isnt bad but because of the country i live in they are very underpaid. Like some evwn get paid less than nurses and theur hughest income here 19k (which only 377 in US dollars) a month. Although i bet after pandemic the proffession will ve appreciated more.
Okay back to topic. I chose that cause i feel like i couldnt achieve what i wanted. Then when i was scrolling thru youtube and found Hyram who was skin care expert. Hearring him talk about the ingredients and ehat certain compounds do to your skin sparked my love for dermatology again. I wanted to be able to do surgeries and loved skin care so dermatology was the perfect mix of both.
I forgot how much joy learning about compounds and what they did to our skin. While studying i actually hated chemistry but now with my joy for it coming back i actually love it now. It helped me get encouraged back ro studying hard and not just with the mentality of "i just need to pass" but with the mentality that i want yo do my best cause i love it.
I feel ready to do my best and out of my slight relapse of depression from quarantine(i don't suffer from severe mental issues anymore but i do relapse from time to time but nothing too bad.)