Dear Diary, i had a horrible day after a long time. I had around 20 dates and not a single guy is interested in me. I have around 150-200 profile visitors per day and no one is interested in me. And for the rear once that are, the usually block me or stop talking to me once i send them my pic. Im so surprised that people think im that ugly. I mean im not attractive but im at least average, im just fooling myself with fitness since thats not helping at all. My standard are super super low, and yet still i cant get a man. Im always satisfied with the dates i had but the other person isnt. I think it has to be my looks because i was a class clown, if there is something i know that is that i have a great and funny personality, but gays are shallow and stupid creatures. So basically i wont be able to date until i get the money to fix my ugly ass face. I cant believe that my best years are flying by and i cant even get a guy whos 10 years older than me. I just know that i will turn into this old bitter human, i mean im almost there. Im sad that im not dead, i feel like my existence is a joke not only in dating but in general, im basically the side character of a side character. No matter how much i try, and bitch i try HARD, i cant move up the scale. If i were dead i would at least not suffer like i am now. Im taking antidepressants and they seem to not work anymore. But damn im so shocked that in a city of 2 million people not a single gay wants to date me. wow just wow, imagine what a hideous creature i must look like, i mean i dont see it tho but apparently i am. Thats it bye