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Dear Diary,
Believe it or not. But i am a strong man these days š. Stronger than before. I know at times i still feel weak, but also on ocassions i really feel strong. Those small things dont affect me so much now, and even the big things dont hurt me for too long, they pass quickly. I think some of it because i am growing older and i think i can safely say i am growing a little mature now. But i think its also because of the awareness i am having these days after vipassana. I dont react to everything now. And i know that most of the time whatever it is, its overall impact on our life will actually be so little. Plus maybe its all part of the plan. Everything happening, just so that we all can reach to our destination, the right place at the right time.
Also i think this good feeling is coming because, i know that she isnt mad at me. We are on good terms. And nothing in the world seems to bother me at all when i know that i can still talk to her. I know that whereever i am, i am on the right track.
Past week has been very hactic. I worked a lot. But i think working a lot only makes me happier. I like it. We got into problems, we solved few too.
Also i learnt few very important lessons this week. For past few months i have been feeling so enthusiastic about the company. Its because i believe in the company so much more now, and i want to give it my 100%. And i started believing that this is my playground, this is where i get a chance to leave a mark on the world. I was also driving the team and sometimes i had to keep my foot down, take some decisions which everyone did not like. But in the process i forgot that they were also my friends. I forgot to take time out to talk to team and know how they are doing or if they wanted something or if they dint like something. I forgot to appreciate them when they were doing good. Instead i yelled at them at times.
Life teaches us few things the hard way. I learnt the importance of it when akshay resigned.
But i wont let it happen again.
Ok. That's it for now.
Goodnight