Dear Diary,
Emma is going to be a mother now.
I was surprised, as equal to mom when we saw the egg. And i searched on youtube how to take care of them. I am not sure if i felt very happy or not. I was more like, what do i do now..!! It took me some time to realize its a good thing... I looked at it like now i have the responsibility of two more lives. But the truth is, its not. I am not responsible for anyone. They'll grow by themselves. All i have to do is give them food. And in return, i get to see them, which many times lift my spirit when i am feeling low.😊
The corona thing is really going crazy. And i think people are still not understanding. The low numbers of India scare me even more. But from another point of view. What can we do anyway... We aren't here forever, and it may look like we can control the pandemic by taking precautions and by lockdowns. It, of course, gives us a sense that saving lives is in our hands.. But is it really...?
We don't know how a virus is created from the same atoms we are created. How this came into life and how it started affecting humans suddenly and so rapidly...this is all governed by something which is beyond our comprehension. And it's like a play, and our act is governed by our natural instinct which is given to us by the same thing. Of course we'll act and try to protect ourselves. But the course i believe is already defined. So there is nothing to worry about... What will happen will happen.
These days i am working a lot. Not accomplishing much, but sitting on the system for long at least. The office starts at 10 and i sleep at 2. I started working on the go broker. Its really frustrating and takes a lot of my time in doing tiny things. But i am hopeful. I know that its difficult, but in the process, I'll learn so much.
I made a couple more projects.
Wrote a Cordova plugin, a homebridge plugin, made the madlebrotset illustration, completed the hindi language thing also... (i dont know if i told you these things already...). Taking the deep learning course also, wrote some of my first neural network models.
And yesterday we did the apple home kit integration with homebridge. I think this will be good.... Today i am giving an algorithm test, but I haven't studied anything.. I have been postponing it for days.. But then today i read a quote from ted Mosby.. Sometimes even when we know how its gonna end, it doesn't mean we can't enjoy the ride...
Tod needs few feature upgrades too... Hoping to do them tmrw... I have so little time and i have to do so much...
I talk to her sometimes, i can't define the feeling, but it feels so great and uplifting. To be honest, i think, still, some of the old nature is in me. I am still not being 100% true, I still imagine our conversations before talking and i am still trying to build my image sometimes. I decided one thing that if I want to be completely honest with her all the time then I won't do or tell anything that is not spontaneous, because if it is spontaneous then there is less chance that i made it up to build my image in front of her. If a thought about how our conversation would go come into my mind, I just won't talk about that...
I am not doing any meditation these days, i am not able to focus recently. But it think i can work on it.
My tummy is getting bigger everyday 😀, but i saw videos of amir khan and Hrithik Roshan, how even in that age, they just did the workout and took the right meal and had such transformation, Of course, it looked very difficult and demanding that zeal... But at least it's possible. SO i think after the lockdown, I can join the gym and get this thing right. Honestly, I was about to join cult fit just before the lockdown started..
Mom and sweety are doing fine. Sweety is watching series full day long... That bothers me a little, as i can't see someone not working...Plus she gives orders to mon, like do this, do that for me, mom have to make pani puri for her while she enjoys her series.. 😀 But i think she'll do fine. Recently she started writing poems and stuff, atleast these series are helping her with learning english...
I screwed up the test yeterday😑, i am always bad at tests, in my career i am where i am only with luck, I know... The test was for 3 hours and i could not finish it even after 6 hours... I am very slow and i think too much... She is good with tests... She is brilliant...
Anyway, Ta Ta..
See you next time... ❤️