I get to stay home today. I feel stupid. but I know that telling was my best choice, I have a therapy appointment on Monday. Dad seems disappointed, but I know that's just my brain saying that, he's worried, but I don't like people being worried about me. I keep thinking about how I'll explain to everyone why I was gone. I'm going to tell them, I cant and wont lie. I hate lying about harming myself, so if somebody asks I shove it off or avoid the question, but this time I'll tell, they deserve to know. Now that I've calmed down, and I can think rationally, I still feel overwhelmed. and I'm still scared of what's going to happen. I still have the urge to cut as well. but it'll see the light now.
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