February 06, 2020

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Letting my inner thoughts be read by others, maybe it will be liberating... 

Getting down to the wire, he is wanting to really get married and I'm running out of excuses... What really bothers me the most is my daughter wants us too, she says he is a good man and will be good to her mother... Dont get me wrong he is a good man that adores me, loves me with all his soul and would support me in whatever I go through, all of this I know... There is just something still deep down in my gut saying there is something off! I try and tell my self it's a side effect of my drug use and it's not real but it wont go away. Then again with all the mental problems I've had through the years maybe it's just me being crazy! Not like I'm really batshit crazy or anything, just some depression or BPD stuff that's all. I'm so sick of this uneasy feeling, if there are some lies he  has told about his past maybe they are for a reason like spare my feelings r something. I'm still so conflicted. 

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hazeFeb 9, 2020

give it a time. make decisions that are good for you. not for your parents, friends etc... 😊

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SilenceFeb 9, 2020

If you have a gut feeling, it's probably correct. The mind has a way of picking up subconscious body language signals from others. He could be hiding something, but the only way to tell for sure is to give it lots of time. Me and my husband didn't get married for eight years. We learned a lot about each other during that time. Just my 2 cents. Do what you feel is right. Let no one else make such a big decision for you.

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Kung Fu Panda 🤠Feb 6, 2020

I dont know how much he loves you. But one thing i k ow is, in life we often dont get perfect things! Its sad but its true

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