November 23, 2019

Fri Night- sat Morning note

     Even though you irritate me sometimes, and we have very petty arguments, you are the only person I'd want to see the next day.

Hunty, you are incorrigible. You are everything I could've never imagined. You're such a roller coaster, and I love the ride, and it makes me laugh, and cry, and get scared. And I'm scared for you. Scared for me. I don't know how to make my thoughts reach you. Tonight they sort of did.
Your so tired though. You took my words and used them against me. (Your a jerk) So it may have all been in vain, time will tell.
And I'm tired, so we're both tired. And maybe we said things out of fatigue. I didn't want to leave. Not like that.
I came to see you tonight, but as always, you still manage to make my appearance an opportunity. This time to be invasive. In something that has nothing to do with you.
And maybe I'm protecting myself. And what  I accepted about myself,  your so sacrificial for.
And I'm afraid. And you can't understand. And I know that this could possibly be the last time. And it's not my doing.