Dear Diary, I hate my body, it disgusts me, I'm so fat and have stretch marks all over my stomach, I try to eat healthy but I keep failing then I hate myself more and eat to comfort my pain, obviously you can see the cycle here.
Three years ago, I lost 8stone. but thanks to a toxic relationship triggering a depressive episode, that I still don't think I'm fully over.
I put all the weight back on and the thought of having to climb that hurdle again is so disheartening I think I'm scared to put real effort in, to lose the weight if that makes any sense. I need to get my shit together.