I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
By becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you
Can't you see that you're smothering me?
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
Caught in…
Linkin park- numb



And i am... Protecting myself from whats about to happen... What is happening... Whats already happened...

Probably the worst thing i cam do.. But my mond shut down an i gave up... Everything i do is wrong... And when i fix it i fix it wrong... Im tired of hurting people... When this situation is over... Im just going to work an sleep... 7 days a week... Check in with probation when im supposed to an go to class... And that's it.. Im clearly not even safe to be a friend to myself..