Dear Diary, I wish I could break up with my boyfriend. If we haven't made a deal that I have to be petien to wait him until in the end of this year, we would broke up since a long ago.
This week... He made a lot of mistake... We were fighting for many time. We should broke up... Because I m tired waiting him...
He often disappointed me...
I try to stand with him because our parents know each other. I know he tried his best to make me happy... I know how hard he tried but... He did his same mistake again and again. I understood and i forgave him over and over. Sadly, we have planned to married next year, but I m not sure.
I m fucking tired right now. I hope he would not disappointed me again. I am sad and quite stress with my study. He is too...
That's why... Why we should continue this pathetic relationship?
Why we should hurt each other if our feeling is change?
Am I still in love with him? Yes... I am.
But my love isn't that big. N now I don't know what to do....