I don't even know, why I'm wired like this. Once we are wired, can we really change? Btw, I'm wired to think that the birthdays are so special, they must be so perfect, planned and happy. Isnt that just another day? When I asked this myself, my Chaitanya(consciousness) told Chaitanya(me 😅), that this is the only day you get free attention. I hate that this is the reason, I don't even know, why I'm so obsessed with perfect birthdays, knowing the fact that I'm aging and will die sooner 😂
So, I wanted to plan a trip on my birthday, making it something special/different/whatever. I want to spend my birthday with my closest friends in a micro-vacation to some exotic place. See, the obsession for the perfection 😂
So, I asked all of my closest friends. Chandu said, he had to take care of his mother/hospital/thingy. Shorya said yes and also did Arihant and Saikat. 4 people, I thouhy, Great!
Later, Shourya says, he will be busy, he won't be able to make it. Arihant too. And I'm left with Saikat only. How will it be perfect, now😂
And I asked other close friends, Aaku and Vijay. Both of them said yes. Again, 4 of us, perfect birthday?then, I just went down to buy some veggies and I'm back. 2 messages in whatsapp, Aaku says, " got German classes, can't miss". Vijay says some random shit, as he always always always does. So, yet again, I'm left with Saikat (Are we soulmates, Saikat?🤣)
Then Saikat says, "I'll aks my girlfriend, you ask the girl you are dating". We aren't that close, we've been only on 3 dates. Still I asked, she was excited and wants to go. But later, her dad says no😅
Yet again and again, I'm left with Saikat. After all this mess, I realised, if I'm so obsessed with the day being special, can't I do it without anyone? What's wrong going solo(Saikat won't be traveling with me as he is Bengaluru, he'll be coming in another bus).
Then, I felt the breeze, it's June. Something is in the air, I felt so confident and happy. Booked my tickets.
Is it really a series of unfortunate events?