June 26, 2019

Dear whoever is reading this, alot has been on my mind... I let go of feelings for a lover... But its like he still here... I miss him, his smell & warmth.... Which is weird for someone who could be so cold. I told him, i don't ask you to pay my bills, give me money or to even expect you to buy me things! I expect you to have enough respect for me to keep shit true, honest, 💯 dont play my face or waste my time! Thats all i ask of you... Yet you cant do half of that....then our energies dont match & im not giving myself, all myself to one person who can't or won't match what i bring to the table or to "our relationship" its sad... Im layyin here writing & thinking of this man... When i was the one to step up & tell him enough is enough!! I deserve better! You want me to be all yours, loyal to you! Yet you dont even be about what you stay preaching about. You have some nerve to text me after getting your shit "you know you shoulda gave me sum when i was there & you can have my black on the porch or save it for me lol" like REALLY!!!! HELLO i broke up with you bc you was half ass & funny acttin af.... Yet you think i shoulda gave you sum!?! Woowwww skerrrrrrrrrrt! Even if i got feelings for youvstill, nahh i love myself more & you a fool for not being man enough to see & be the kind of man i need. Your a fuckboyy & its unattractive! I wanna KING, bc im a QUEEN 💯💯 I'll always pick myself back up & fix my crown.  💪👑💗