Dear Diary,
Hi. although I have other Important things to do right now. But I think telling you this is important too.
Dawrani is getting married. Shikha got a job in bangalore, Genpact. And the are getting engaged in september.
Dawrani told me about she getting job and she told me about the getting engaged. =D. I wonder why dawrani did not tell me yet about the engagement date, he is either being shy, but i think its because he doesnt know how to tell it proudly to me that he is doing something we have been keeping ourselves away from all this time. We always discussed the trap of life. And he is falling into that. I wonder why I am not sad, because if this is happening, the chances of us doing business together or traveling more are only decreasing. We'll not be able to do everything we are able to do today. Infact there will be no boys trip again. Things will be different, when we'll go on trips with her.
But i am not feeling sad, i dont know why. I mean i am almost acting like it isn't affecting me at all. It should be. 7 Billion people and i only have 2 friends. And he is the second one starting on a different journey now. I know this shouldn't easy for him too. He knows this too, that things wont be same, he wont be as free as he is today.
Somewhere in our hearts we all may want to settle down with the ones we love. But that comes at a cost. We cant have it all.
I don't know, i am just not feeling it.
7th September she said.
Meanwhile, other things in life-
Its going along. Working hard these days. Something has happened to me recently, my inner kid which was sleeping for a long time, almost woke up again, these days i do crazy things, i ask people more questions, less procrastination, do more things. I even started drawing sketches. I started a course on astronomy on coursera, suddenly i am so much into the science. `Impey Chris`- He has become my second favorite professor after Andrew Ng. The first week is about science and discovery, i liked the fact that unlike other people being so adamant about the science, he looks at science naively, he accepts the uncertainty and the error. the first week is really awesome.
Was talking to archana randomly and she told me she went to ladakh this year. I think she is doing good. Makes me happy. I dint ask about with whom or when. I am just happy, she is doing good.
Then Ginni messaged me on facebook asking if i knew which route did they take for the trip, she couldn't connect with any of them and got worried. I wonder sometimes if this whole thing is just planned by god, and stones kept in a pattern which we unfold. Talking to Archana was random, she telling me about ladakh was total random, and then knowing that ginni still remembers me, out of blue. For a moment it gave me some hope, that maybe, maybe someday...
But i know... It wont. It wont. And maybe it is for the good of us. Maybe the accidents last year were the signs. I dont know you god. If you are there, or its all just random. I wont look for you though.
Anyway, I know that life would still be just fine. What will happen, will happen. And i'll keep doing things i like doing.
Borrowed IPad from sandeep, with the apple pencil, the ipad is good. I mean its still waste, but for sketching its good.
Not going for jogging these days. Donated blood today.
Its all good.
Goodnight ❤️