Dear Diary, decided to clean today. Woke up from a late night fueled with wine and crying and as I always do, arose like Phoenix from my ashes of self pity and doubt to be greeted by the sun and a lust to do better. I need change and growth. It scares me to leave behind my current me and all that means, but I know it's time. I am looking forward to who I will become. I am looking forward to not missing who I am now.