Dear Diary, sad to say im still fighting with my self knowing i should have left a long time ago. i just need to save up a months income.u may not belive it but it easyer said then done. i have to move and hold a job at the same time no sleep stress on top of stress. i dont know how i would deal with that on my own. i keep trying to tell my self that i have been throuh this before and that its a piece of cake. then the othere side of me is like that was the worst expecrence in my life i would not wish that on my worse enemy. maby im afraid of how i would look to eveyone else but then i remember i dont really have any friends just my puppymamma and my daughter. maby im just afraid period.....
but i really want to move and i have to move i feel my self starting to truly hate my life. not saying i would end my life just im stressed and i want to scream it to the top of my lungs without looking completly insain. i guess for now i will just write and vent to this diary.