Dear Diary,
3 Days ago i was lost and i wrote about emptiness to you. I think time heals things. I feel ok now, no more emptiness, i feel like working on my dreams projects now, feel like jogging and talking to friends.
Mom is not home, so i have to manage the house on myself too.Wake up on my own, Feed Emma,Forrest in morning, clean the bed, bring groceries, make breakfast(Maybe dinner too, I am really not sure what i am going to eat for next 2 months, i don't like outside food.),shut the windows, turn off lights, cleaning the house... Its like all together new responsibilities....All these things mom used to do ever since she came here. Although i have been alone before but this time it feels different. I feel exciting this time as I am trying to learn to mange a house now(I think it is a big deal... )
Although i still miss something in the morning as soon as i wake up, i remember how my day would go just great if we had talked in the morning, even the small conversation b/w us just gave me the sense of beauty in this world and assured me i was on the right track...So, That still feels like, What if...
But i guess that's life, we always have something missing... But that really keeps us humble in our lives.
Anyway, coming days are going to be exciting(I hope so). I'll start working more and sleep less again now.. =D. Will go out with friends more and i'll try to do something nice with the life...