Dear Diary,

Its 9:46 PM, and im over here thinking about this boy i like and im not the best about hiding it we make eye contacts all the times, he looks at me like hes inlove but i overthink about what if he likes another girl while liking me or marry another girl after liking me or during liking me , i shouldnt be overthinking about that im young and he is also but i think about the eye contacts we make ALL the times and how i like him and how i look at him with LOVE in my eye. I'm so young but ive had a hate and love with him for a long time and ive hated him so much to the point i used to talk shit and call him annoying but now one time he made a eye contact with me and thats all i needed i felt relieved SO much, and i felt peace i felt love, im confused because ive never thought he'd like me OR I'd like him. I love him so much i really do.. Love is a strong word but i really think i mean it and i hope i mean it, Im hoping he never loses feelings and i be MYSELF around him and everyone else obviously but if another girl catches feelings or something girl u can have him😒, lol im joking i think but either way I hope i keep making eye contacts with him and Ill never stop if its for the best and if i keep can and when he stares at me he smiles so it makes me feel relieved to know someone is looking at me with love, hopefully....but i look at him with love all the times hoping he wouldnt see me but i make it obvious without trying to but im lowkey glad i do because so he would know..If allah could give me anything i wanted i would say to have a future with him, and only him IF hes a good person. Ya allah bring him to me or take him💞❤.

Polon's Dear Diary