Dear Diary, I spent my day outside almost all day.

Visited a library and accidentally found a book about Morita Therapy. And it seemed good to me.

I had been took meds but i felt it ended up with me just feeling a little better. Just feeling better than feeling depressed. That is not what I really want. That should be a mile stone.

On the other hand, the new method seems reasonable.

Why? … I forgot!

I think it’s because the method is for get rid of the toxic way that our mind takes us to depression. And I had already realized my toxic self talk and the needs that I must conquer it.

Also my depression is the kind that last years and years long, not so deadly serious but still makes my life very very low quality. I’ve already lost my teen age, the beginning of 20s and friends! I am sick of this. I already had enough of this.

… okay, The whole method sounds kinda odd to me but I can understand it leads us to be the healthy and neutral selves. I can’t afford myself the whole real Morita method.

But the journal method was the most interesting therapy I found in the book.

It says, a journal should filled with actions we took that day, do not focus on how we felt that day. We may write how the actions made us feel but the most important thing is action we took that day.

Like… “l went walk for 10 minutes today. I saw a tiny frog on the road. It somehow made me feel sad. But I soak the sun up before noon. Doing good for my health.”

And we also should avoid to take more than 30mins on this and to fill more than one page a day.

I thought the diary requires something similar to what Lynda Barry’s daily diary requires, so I liked the idea.

I might give it a try!

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