Dear Diary,

How can I describe how I feel to anyone. It’s been a while since I felt this way its good to feel normal again I think I lost that feeling for a long long time. Now I can manage normal people chores, think clearly play with my nephews, enjoy family events and love life a little bit.

I thought The main reason for loosing my self was depression but after so many years and that big collapse at work I went to a doctor in some military hospital and he assured me it’s bipolar 2 .

I lost my both best friends and I don’t regret it at all I think if they love me enough they will stick no matter how bad it is. I’ve been there for them in their worse moments and what I get from them is neglecting.

When you get older you become your own BFF at least you know your self, you know what you’re capable to do, and how great you are as a person.

can it be worsen, I don’t know but I’m doing my best to not go to that road anymore. I feel that I need to be happy, positive and free from all my chaos.

Eraya's Dear Diary