Airen's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, There are so many questions in my mind. But I don't know what to do about them. What can you do when a relationship you knew existed becomes one sided? The love, the emotions, the time you invested in it seems to backfire slowly. No

Dear Diary, I wonder why does my mind bring memories from the past which make me depressed because of their impact on my life. Why can't I just forget what happened and not allow my brain to play it to come back? It kills me inside, I don't know

Dear Diary, To my future husband, if I ever have one, please don't leave me alone in the dark to fight the demons who have kept me awake for my whole life. My heart has been broken for a while. I hope you are proud to love me, pamper me, understand

Did you know it’s hard to cut your self with ceramic. Sense I was a teenager I’ve never in a long time wanted it to be over. Until this moment. I’m so tired.

Dear Me,  You have a problem. You really just spent what 100 160 140 100/ 500 fucking dollars at the casino when you have a car in the fucking shop what is your problem what is your problem you have yourself sitting on the floor in a public r

Dear Diary, So I new I’m still debating on being public no not. I just want to know I’m not the only one but I do I know it. It just feels like I’m not, I get overwhelmed so often lately. I’ve had to take care of everyone my whole life from daugh