Yeah, I can and tend to be a sad sack who complains about being lonely and is always saying she's on the verge of giving up, but you know what?

I haven't given up.

I've never given up.

I've realized this once before, years ago, and that's how I came up with my username.

I had been thinking recently, "Why do I even call myself xhopefulprincess anymore? I should be EX-hopefulprincess. 🙄"

But I've never lost hope; it was just hiding in the cracks of my heart, waiting for the skies to clear. It may be all dark and gloomy now, but I've always known and hoped for a better future.

That's why, even though I've been cursing the stupid guys I keep finding on dating apps, I keep looking. I know that eventually I'll find my sunshine through the trash.

And, god, there's so much trash.

Better days will come and I will be happy. I just have to keep hoping for those days to come. I must not give up hope.

(Note to the readers: no, I'm not saying that obtaining a boyfriend will make me happy and solve all my problems. I know that isn't true. My hope extends further than just to romantic relationships, but I don't quite know how to put that part into words. The paragraph after the "..." was me trying to explain that.)

Elaina's Dear Diary