James's Dear Diary

Dear Diary, My name is Marybeth Smith. I have published my very first book called Love Letters to God. I wrote my book in 2013.  I am so excited! I could never have thought my dreams would come true.  I pray for my and my man's success. 

What do I need? Honestly? I need to cry, to be held and listened to. To not be judged for my reactions, for my endless rambles. To grieve everything I've lost, so quick in their procession. I know some of them aren't gone but I can't go back to befor

I feel so guilty. For not being better already, for not being able to take care of others like they're used to. Most of all I'm guilty though because this is the most relived I've felt in years. I don't think they'll ever understand the pain they've

The world felt a little bit too big today. Mom left for the weekend on a whim, so me and T are left to take care of my sister. We're not a bad team, and it's not bad getting close but I want to be done with this. I need to leave. Of course I've got n

Life is a bit of a shit show at this point. I woke up today and I can tell my meds aren't working. I have the urge to go on a shopping spree and spend my money but I also know I have responsibilities at home. I'm trying not to go back down, I've only