Shay's Dear Diary

Dear June, that painful memory...that trauma is hitting me again. I hate it now. It seems that I'm sometimes afraid of the same thing happening agan...at this point its scary, even learning to trust people is scary...im afraid, and...tired. Than

Dear June, Wow, Sleep wasn’t well last night and of course, affected my waking hours. Thought you should know. I had a series of mini nightmares causing me a lot of fear every few hours that made me wake up. And it was nightmares about my abusive

Dear June, (This will be your name <3) Happy Thursday! My first diary entry, I guess. Just wanted to introduce myself and my life, so we can go on this journey together. Hi, my name is Shay. Shay Lyon Barrows. Cool, right? I got Shay from my mo

What do I need? Honestly? I need to cry, to be held and listened to. To not be judged for my reactions, for my endless rambles. To grieve everything I've lost, so quick in their procession. I know some of them aren't gone but I can't go back to befor

I feel so guilty. For not being better already, for not being able to take care of others like they're used to. Most of all I'm guilty though because this is the most relived I've felt in years. I don't think they'll ever understand the pain they've

The world felt a little bit too big today. Mom left for the weekend on a whim, so me and T are left to take care of my sister. We're not a bad team, and it's not bad getting close but I want to be done with this. I need to leave. Of course I've got n

Life is a bit of a shit show at this point. I woke up today and I can tell my meds aren't working. I have the urge to go on a shopping spree and spend my money but I also know I have responsibilities at home. I'm trying not to go back down, I've only