April 19, 2026

Dear Diary,I really needed to get this out of my system, so that’s why I’m here again.

I was talking to this guy for some time, and from the very beginning, he was love-bombing me. And I knew it. I knew it didn’t mean anything. But the stupid girl that I am, I thought I could stay detached. I told myself I could talk to him without feeling anything, that his words wouldn’t affect me because I knew it was love-bombing. Stupid, I know—but I still did it.

We had been talking for a while. The thing about him was that as long as I said what he wanted to hear and the conversation went in the direction he liked, everything was fine. But the moment I said something different—like questioning him or pointing out something he did that hurt me—he would get defensive and gaslight me into thinking it was my fault.

I understood all of this, and still, like an idiot, I chose to give him the benefit of the doubt. And that’s what brought me here today.

Out of curiosity, I asked one of my friends to text him from a different account just to see how he would respond to someone else. And well… we all know how that turned out.

I just don’t understand—if you only want hookups, then go for people who want the same thing. Why target people who don’t want that, and then manipulate them into it? Wouldn’t it be easier to just be with someone who already wants that? What kind of satisfaction or dopamine boost do people get from manipulating others? I genuinely don’t understand.

Then I blocked him. Before blocking him, I only said this: Why would you do this to me? What did I ever do to you? You might not remember, but I do—all the times you said your feelings were genuine. Why did you lie?

I have no problem with him talking to other girls. It’s his life—he can do whatever he want. But why lie? I was open with him. I even joked about things, but he insisted —that I was the girl he wanted.

Why?

And then they wonder why women end up hating men. Why? I think the answer should be obvious by now.