April 17, 2026

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Dear Diary,

To the people reading this:

Sorry about not updating every day but im back now.

I feel depersonalisation and detarealisation every where,every time of the day,no matter who i am with,no matter what.

I try not to think about it but even then my eyes burn.

I mean,i concentrate on the things around me so time goes quicker.Every night i say "Soon enough ill be in school tommow" Then im in school and then i realise how fast it went since it didnt concentrate on the things right infront of me.

This makes things worsen,every day i feel like it just gets stronger and stronger. SO i started to make a book,only on google docs for now its like diary but one day the whole world will be able to read it,relate. I spend hours and hours in book shops scanning the shelfs carefully,reading every short story at the back. I just want to see a title that reads:

"MY THEROY EVER LASTS MY STANCE"

Which means, my thoughts ever last my personality and change.

At the moment I'm writing one that is about a man with skizophrenia and he is also stuck in the same problems as me so i am not directly addressing myself. This book will be called:

"ABANDONEDNESS"

which means, "Being in control of things abandoned itself".

I have been writing for roughly 8 months now and i have written about 35 pages so far.

Anyways thats all for today!

Yours truly,

BUNNII

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Based on your writing style here, it's pretty clear to me that you feel very deeply. You feel everything, in every way, all the time. Perhaps sometimes one feeling will outweigh the rest, but most often the whirlwind of emotion is overwhelming. Maybe I'm wrong. I don't know you, of course. I just happen to be a human being, somewhere else on Earth, who has felt exactly as I just described for most of my life. Since you mentioned school, I would also guess that you're still a teen, or college-age. I try not to live in regret, and learn from my experiences no matter how many years it might take- but... I start to spiral out of control if I even consider how different things might have turned out if I had done just one thing differently, or said the right thing instead of what made things worse. It kills me to think that someone I loved might still be alive today, if I hadn't been so selfish and screwed up. I wanted to tell you that I really look forward to reading any short stories, or anything else that you end up sharing here. I happen to be pretty good at proofreading and editing, if that's something you ever find yourself in need of. (AI has gotten pretty good at it, as well- but nothing beats the human mind!) Even if you end up having a particularly rough day, and feel that reaching out to a friend or family member would only be a burden (you're not, but I know the feeling), I'd be more than happy to be the anonymous human that you can vent to, chat with, whatever. I have all the free time in the world, and human interaction probably wouldn't be the worst thing ever for me, if I'm being honest. If you decide you'd like to respond, any comments on this entry will show up in my notifications, or you can comment on one of my entries, if you feel like reading to find out more about me first. No pressure, either way. Sending you hopes of never-ending creativity, motivation, and positivity in your writing, and in life. -L

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"A diary is a friend who will never betray you."

— Seo Jang-geum