April 16, 2026

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Dear Diary,

I hate this feeling.

I cant enjoy anything Iove because it all reminds me of him.

I found my favourite games because of him, my favourite songs remind me of him, hell my FUCKING HOBBIES too.

I know its just a break

Its just 2 months

56 days total

But 2 months feels like forever

Its only been a day and I already know I dont wanna live like this for 2 months

Im willing too because I love him

I havent gone more than an hour without crying

I cant do this, but i have too

I dont have a choice anyway.

Im so scared.

Everything hurts and its not gonna get any better.

The things I do for someone I love

The amount im willing to suffer if it makes someone I love feel better

Even if im at my limit

N
Noah✓
Apr 16, 2026 · 36 views

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LApr 17, 2026

If you understood my "wink wink" (see first comment below), feel free to email me at lkerickson27@gmail.com. Even if nothing comes of it other than giving you a short break from being stuck in your own head, typing it all out so it doesn't stay stuck up there, I'm happy to be that outlet for you. (Although, I do find that a good back-and-forth with someone else, on any level, can be really helpful. Just throwin' it out there! No pressure.)

L
LApr 17, 2026

I've been where you are, friend. Here's some advice you didn't ask for: If you're committed to sticking with this "break", because it's what your partner seems to want, do it. Stick with it. Just don't do it alone... whether it's meeting up with a friend or family member more often than usual, or texting/emailing back and forth with a new online friend (wink wink), the feeling of being completely alone after being with ONE person for an extended period of time is always the hardest, for me. I'm not going to say "it will get better". Sometimes, it doesn't. Wishing the best for you. -L

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