April 05, 2026

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Dear Diary, I need to change something in my life. For the last month, complexes and doubts have consumed me. I seemed to be behaving even more strangely than before. I feel like a weirdo around people and very socially awkward. I don't know where to start. Well, at least today I'm only required to do homework, because I've so much to study for next week •́⁠ ⁠ ⁠‿⁠ ⁠,⁠•̀


I feel not only extremely ugly, but also a bad person. I don't have the energy for social interactions. That's why I prefer solo walks now. Damn, my whining annoys me


Maybe it's worth starting with something simple. Today I will write down a few things I want to have or experience..okay, let's start:

1. Photocamera but idk

2. Wood carving knife  (in process)

3. A cool jacket or sweater

4. Many more nature walks 

5. Volunteering 

6. Feeling my presence in life

7. Taking a Godot course

8. Bringing the passion for art back into my life

9. Smoked braided cheese 

10.​ A concert by my favorite band

11. ​Going to the cinema alone


 I don't know what else to write. That's all that came to mind. 


The attached image is what I call 'art therapy'. This is just a reflection of how I've been feeling lately





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nio24m ago

Hira, thank you very much for your words! Speaking of photography, I agree that it is an art, and all art is unique. Thanks to you, I feel like I have a better chance of following my dream. Thank you for your sincere and warm words. All the best ⊂⁠(⁠･⁠ω⁠･⊂⁠)

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Hira10h ago

Nio, I just read ur diary. I must say I understand some of ur thoughts and worries, but I am proud, as a stranger, that u already have Ideas to overcome ur thoughts. Ur list seems really interesting and good, especially the Thema Photographic. I tried this as well and can say, it can really help calming down. In its own unique way. Since Photography is never the same to everyone. Its unique as the photos u take and the view u have. So I would suggest u that u try it out. Especially now since the days get warmer and longer Love, Hira

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