“i stay, quietly” ~song-poem

I tried to express my depressed thoughts in a way of song-poem here,

“i stay, quietly”

my voice still shrinks
in crowded spaces—
like it was never mine to begin with.

words gather in my chest,
but silence speaks for me
before i ever can.

i don’t say much…
not because i’m empty,
but because i feel
everything at once.

they say i’m distant.
maybe i am.

but if i let everything out,
all at once—
i’m afraid
i might not be able to hold myself together.

so i step back a little,
go quiet a little,
just to breathe.

i carry memories
in places no one sees,
in tears i never show,
in moments that never really left me.

and maybe
this is how i survive—

half hidden,
half holding on,
learning slowly
not to disappear completely.

i’m not loud.
i’m not always seen.

but there is a world inside me
that never stopped feeling.

even if my voice shakes,
even if i fade sometimes—

in my own quiet way…
i stay.