March 05, 2026

Dear Diary,

This is something I wrote because I was very sad. Choosing a specialization has been a difficult task for me because people see me differently from who I really am. Many people thought I should study crop production. I do not know why, and I kept asking myself why they see me that way.

From my own perspective, I love being practical, and I do not like people treating me like an ordinary woman. No, no. I love involving myself in things that society often considers difficult for women.

Today, one of my colleagues someone I thought understood me said that I chose my specialization because of my roommates. But by nature, I have never accepted being led by others when it comes to important decisions in my life. Whether people respect my choices or not, I stand by what I truly believe in. At the same time, I have learned how to live peacefully with others.

Still, that comment felt like my pride had been stepped on. I chose my specialization because of my career path. I need this specialization to be able to continue in this profession and pursue it further in my master's studies.

I was so sad that I could not even sleep without writing down my emotions. So here I am. Even if I cannot fully express everything out loud, writing this has helped me feel calmer.

Now I can finally rest.