I already have a boyfriend, still in early stage of relationship, getting butterflies over small text, small talk, daydreaming about him all day.
I still or actually tried talking with all kind of boys just to not fall in love with my boyfriend when we weren't into relationship of saying he is mine or I am his,...
I am sorry, I did a mistake which seems small, but I know you may never be able to forgive me.
I went into a hotel room with one of my online friend, whom I am not even 1% interested, I was just being friendly with him without letting myself get any romantic interests in him, which I honestly never feel so.. But I sleep with him in one room. Even though we didn't anything like a couple, other than he playfully tried to hold my hand, I somehow manage to not him cross the line. I felt like a dust now, you love the purity about me, but I guess, I am not pure anymore if people judge, although I don't let him touch me, still spending a few hours of midnight with a online friend, meeting first time is becoming way more dangerous than how it sounds in drama and stories. I am sorry, should I be honest with you, and break-up with you, but I am more scared of hurting your feelings by not being loyal to you. I am sorry, I am sorry to you as well as myself, there is no any chance that you will get to know about this, but still I feel guilty now, felt like I am that mean girl, that 2 to 4 hours of spending a mid-night with him at a hotel room was the worst experience of my life, I may never be able to look at myself with the same pride over myself, why always innocence get trapped by some of this fucked-up boys. And I am being unfair to another nice guy.