January 03, 2026

Dear Diary,

Him

I have regret for not showing you Love

I wish I did things differently. Because all I want to do in my life now always show you love. And repair what I have broken. 

I think about how bad I have been to you, and It's the most painful part. Why? Because when I meet you there was something different for me 

Something took over me that I have never even been close to what I've had with other woman

That feeling has been a a constant burning through my our whole relationship. 

And I think feeling is my love to you

Positive burning. A light. A power. You know. She's perfect. And special. And when I reflect on how I have treated you, I'm devastated. I'm devastated. It's not what I wanted for you, for us.