January 01, 2026

Dear friend,

hello one and all whoever is hearing me, I am here after so many months of writing over my private journal. 

I created this account specially or mainly because there were some stuff that was constantly roaming aroung my mind, which I can't figure our why and what and how to stop or continue being into it. 

What I want at the end is, I need self-improvement, after another one and half year, if I don't work on myself, I will be a beggar at home, I don't really want to go back, I am shame of being a burden to my hardworking mother, and my chill-pill cool dad, and my little hearts or my siblings and my grandparent. I have a very beautiful complete family, I am so happy and blessed but can't rely on anyone lifetime.

I need to become a capable person for the sake of allllll.

If I can't help someone else at least I should be responsible enough to take care of myself rather than letting someone get disappointment over you. I meant I am all capable person so why act like a disabled, even they do more.

Life lesson I am carrying from this new year is, 

"even wwhen no one is clapping, I will clap for myself"

"and I will clap for only deserving candidate"

"I will never beg, I will achieve what I want"

lesson from elders I applied and that actually worked!

"keep working on it like the flow of river"

"success isn't gained overnight in reality"