Dear Diary,
Today is New Year's Eve. I am going to spend it alone, but don't pity me. I will order burgers (the only time a year I allow myself takeout) and will watch all the "Maze Runner" movies. I will journal and manifest the next year. Did the same last year, but this time I intend to eat the 12 grapes under the table. Why not? Anyways, I will have a great time, but I do miss my friends so much, and at the same time, I dread the end of winter break with all the learning for exams, assignments, workload, thesis writing, job search, interviews, etc.
The past few days have been a little better regarding my phone addiction. I did small things like yoga (without an app or even a timer), finished a couple of my sewing projects, went outside, and today I even did a short meditation! It's a little stupid really, I saw it in a movie, and the meditation is focused on smiling, but not just with your lips, with your whole body: your brain, your hands and legs, your spine, your lungs, your liver, you must concentrate on smiling with everything. Probably doesn't sound like a real meditation, but I really like the concept.
Still, I have a long way to go. I am still on my phone for the most part of the day. Whenever I text with anyone, I can't help but check for new messages every minute. Currently considering what my next step should be. I will soon be back in the office and am seriously considering leaving my phone at home when I go back. But what about the logistics? I have to be on-call at the other jobs. Ugh. What should I do?