December 17, 2025

My heart's too full but I refuse to give it to a man

There is a huge distintction b/w how i treat my hgs vs any man in my life. I have always done that. W my women, I am the sweetest, kindest, forgiving, always giving them something. Whether any help with academics, or giving them flowers, candies, jewellery, handwritten letters you name it! Prioritizing their texts, their needs. I don't feel the same for men. They are not worthy of that sort of act or service, efforts, or my time. When it was b/w my situationship and my bestfriend, when they were texting at the same time. I always replied to my bestfriend. I'm glad I did. Because look who stayed all these 3 years while plenty of men came, ate, and left. I wonder how it'll be with Ari and me. Online, Ive always been loud, frivolous, saying wtv comes to mind. But irl, a certain rep to keep, hesitancy and I have to face him everyday. He will never know the borderline crazy me, or the kind me. It's always gonna be surface level me.