November 16, 2025

Dear Diary, I feel suffocated... I keep expecting something that would never happen. and I hate that I am so empathetic towards people who don't give a damn Abt me. I have fomo too, so it makes it even worse.

I fear that I might lose the people around me. but would they fear of losing me?

I cry every night listing to billie Eilish. I can't cry out loud and wake up my parents. so, I burst in school. I can't express anything i am just a blank canvas. ik everyone has their nightmares, but I feel like I might end up dying in my nightmare rather than escaping it.

would I ever be free from my helicopter parents?

would I ever be free to cry loudly?

would anyone ever care?

am I too much? maybe I am.