November 10, 2025 #529

Dear Diary, I used to make daily diary comic strips for my instagram. I even made several mini comic zines. 

It was fun and I liked that I have that kind of hobby. 

But I haven’t done anything arty this year which is ending. 

I have the feeling that I want to create something but I just can’t. 

Maybe it’s because I don’t have interesting events in my life after graduating from university and started working:(

Hmmm

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Today I am aware that my energy level was enough to spend my day in living room and to go for a walk. I could do that mentally as well, I guess. But I didn’t anything but rest and sleep. I took a nap around noon then once I realized it was already past 5pm. 

Did I needed the sleep? Did I needed the rest? Should’ve I went for a walk? Was that because I didn’t feel like it or I actually can’t do? 

I remember that originally I was thinking to see a doctor today for finding out if I had possible factor of the symptoms I have. But I ended up not going and backed in my bed. I remember the coldness made me feel reluctant to do anything. I remember I didn’t get back the warmth of my body for long. 

I’m thinking if I was thinking if it was really necessary to stay in bed or not. 

Now I’m about to sleep for the night