Dear Diary,
how do I explain the void inside me why do I struggle to express my feelings am I a bad person to hate people who still care about me is it bad that I ignore everybody but want attention of that person I fear I get attached to people very easily but have the feeling to never talk to them again .Today I sat the station for an hour I simply sat and stare at the people who boarded the train I had no feeling I felt numb well saying I felt nothing is lie I wanted to feel the emotions which I was trying to sabotage I felt a wave of sadness run over me I am no more capable of handling human relationship all I want is to weep in absence of world all I want to do is cry every day I want to understand why do I yearn so much