November 03, 2025

Its scary. These feelings, these thoughts. 

I can't tell if these are even my feelings. It's like im here but someone else is telling me how to feel,what to do. 

At the same time there is just darkness, silence, a room in my head where Time doesn't exist. 

I want to go tomorrow, going to work like nothing happened, wanting to be normal again. But I'm so scared. Scared of being judged, scared being hated for what happend. 

Scared that people are disappointed in me. 

I just want to never go back.