Day 8. Tea Party

I’m writing this right besides Anya, when she tries to finish The House of Da Vinci game. It feels like we are nearing the end, since we are at the top of some tower, and that’s probably the end. With this game (almost) done, I have a bit increased desire to play other games from my backlog, or at least try. I guess that yesterday’s thinking and Anya’s pushes to try some new games weren’t for nothing.

I faced with a hard decision today. While Anya went to a tea tasting to her healthy shop, I was left alone with a choice: either to try playing a new game on Legion Go or read another chapter of Quiet book. Although both options can be considered as “productivity” in my case, I thought that reading a book is a bit harder thing to do, so I managed to force myself to choose the book option. I was reading for a while, or so it felt, managed to read through the entire voluminous chapter, only to discover that I’ve only read 5% of the book during that time. No matter, though. I’ve read about how introverts can kind of wear a mask of an extravert to appear more sociable in different situations, that require that skill, and vice versa. However, the most important thing that I’ve got from today’s reading was that wearing a mask for some time and “be sociable” is okay thing to do if you need it to achieve your goal, that goal that you want to achieve. However, if you do that without a goal (more like be forced to, I guess), it will drain your energy and will result in a lot of different issues, which are not too good. So, the point being is that forcing me to attend more meetings at work to become more sociable and not fear meetings just for the sake of it won’t help me at all. And since I don’t have any goal, that could be achieved by climbing corporate ladder, it all will only result in my pain. So, another one of my theories confirmed.

Another funny thing that happened today, happened to Anya. During her tea tasting, she miscalculated the price of all the tea packages she choose to purchase, and ended up spending a lot of money, and feeling bad about it afterwards. I tried some tea that she liked, but unfortunately, it wasn’t to my taste.

Also managed to gather a lot of tips and tricks from my therapy, and organize them in one document, which also took a lot of time. All in all, a productive day, albeit I’m sad that it’s almost over, since tomorrow only pain, misery and another working week awaits me, most likely with additional load of work that I highly dislike.


And yeah, we watched “Starving Games” - a parody on “The Hunger Games” movie, it was pretty funny. Also I started “The Lovely Bones”, and will probably finish it tomorrow.