Dear Diary, So the other day I went to the endocrinologist to get the blood test results. I was thinking if he said everything seems fine all the problem I’ve been struggling is just all in my head and not real.
But it turned out my energy level is low due to low protein level, fat level, blood sugar level. Now I’m taking vitamin B supplements. He told me vitamin B is consumed when our body makes energy from sugar (if I understand it right) and since my vitamin B level is low my body can’t use it for other purposes such as generating dopamine or serotonin or things like that. And that makes sense that I feel low and feels like everything is too difficult to do.
My psychiatrist I visited the other day also presumed I’m lacking dopamine and prescribed medication for that.
I am glad and relieved so much that I finally got possible reason and counter measures.
But still I slept out every day… I just don’t have energy to do anything
It’s annoying. For example when I went to walk I suddenly lost my energy.., I think it’s both physically and emotionally and had hard time to go home. I can’t tell when it happens so I can’t go far away from home.
Probably my realistic goal that I can set and aim now is to eat meals properly (it’s not that I don’t like to eat. I like to eat but while it’s not in my sight it won’t be my motivation to eat till end of the day and finally I start feeling hungry )
Wake up and get out of bed by 9:30
Eat breakfast with protein such as eggs
Eat lunch
Eat dinner
Me currently doing very bad…
Finally squeeze myself out of bed at 14 today. Maybe that is because I was out for doctors appointment yesterday plus took bath and do the all washing routine but who knows
And ate breakfast/ lunch to take meds and ate dinner at night
I can’t feel joy even if I don’t feel emotion less like I was in worst several years ago I still can read smoothly I guess