October 27, 2025, Lonliness…?

Dear Diary,

I shifted to this new place in xyz city, i came from a different place where a different language is spoken, and when I started my college here in xyz city for intermediate I started so goodly, like everyone use to be soo good to me but then when I started being kind, everyone just used it and now looking at this toxicity I separated from them, i’ve got no friends, i feel lonely alot nowadays with no one around me….they don’t talk to me because maybe i speak a foreign language that no one wants to listen to…, we have English but still… or maybe im too sensitive…

nowadays i just cry because I don’t have friends like i use to have before…or more clearly ‘i never had a true friend or a best friend’. Never. I just feel depressed kinda maybe…

my head hurts alot….everything thats going on..i mean….no friend + lonliness….is making me feel sad and less motivated about studying… i want to know how it feels when someone saves a seat for you…i’ve seen people doing that ….

Maybe someday I experience it too…i wish i had a friend to share everything with. People say, we get people at the most unexpected times… i am still hoping this comes true….i am still waiting…goshh…

I say i am fine alone but deep down i just wish, “i hope I don’t get left alone again” and the exam i am preparing for is to get in a medical college and the pressure about the study stuff is a different story….