October 10, 2025

It's getting hard for me day by day. I can't learn detachment. I really want to depend on someone. There's no one for me. It's hard. It's really hard. What shall I do? I want someone to stay with me 24/7. I can't stay alone. At night it's really hard. I'm so vulnerable. I can feel the pain in my chest. It feels so tight. Why am I like this? Why am I always depending. Why no attention is enough for me. Why I want someone to be the reason for my existence, for me to live , to be my last hope. I hate myself. How can I change my character. This is me.😭😭😭 I can't take it. I can't take anything. But i don't want to be dead. I want to live. I know how beautiful things are around world. But i couldn't enjoy anything. I tried. Idk. Idk. I can't control myself.