Dear Diary, I’m currently struggling with life. I haven’t been able to go to work as I should as full time worker at all.
I made reservations for some doctors’ appointments like 4 or 5 of them.
On the other hand I feel like it’s all in my mind and I’m trying to make a reason and not being just a lazy person.
I’m kinda lazy but not this lazy before I think. I would take a bath and shower everyday while saying I don’t want to…because I don’t want someone think I’m smelly. Even on the weekdays I used to take a “nap” after dinner and woke up around midnight to take a bath but not anymore.
My bag pack has always some trash always.
My bed room floor is covered with my hair because I haven’t been able to vacuum. I’m not kinda person who’s very careful about hygiene but I used to clean my room time to time.
I am introvert but I used to go out on the weekends like visiting cafes or malls and museums but not anymore. I’ve been just staying in bed until past noon every weekend and after lunch I go back to sleep.
Something has been wrong and I’m scared of taking myself into bad spiral again.