August 29, 2025

If happiness can only be found within, where in my existence is it hiding? Which atom is it living in? What matter is it made of? Why haven't I found it yet? How long will it take me to find it? I wish happiness was scattered randomly. So that one normal day, I can find it randomly when I am walking from work on my way to friends for a puff of cigarettes. Then I can swallow it. Let it digest and live within my cells. So that i won't have to search for it. So that every part of me is happiness.