Dear Diary,
cried on one thing and all things came, gathered and cried more. i will always cry if someone treats me bad but infront of them no? will i hide what i feel? yes. is that healthy for my mental health? no. will i do it everytime? yes. always thought i have been so unloved, i will even cry even if someone does bare minimum, like i don't deserve it. i have always felt yk the unseen siblings or even as freind, and i feel the good things is not for me. idk. maybe during childhood that how people have made me felt, how my grandma has made me felt. i still feel like good things doesn't deserve me. I have always been the option, the second choice.....i
bro i am gonna sleep. fuck.