August 16, 2025

Dear Diary,

I'm feeling strange about what I want to do.Something in me has changed. Until now, I was always wanting to learn something new, to do something new. But these days, I think I am finding it hard to believe in anything. 

It all feels so uncertain. I don't know what I should be doing.I have lots of fears, I can see so many things can possibly go wrong. And i am not Ready. 

The world is changing, I'm having less energy, I'm having less time, Time, I don't have. What I feel most sad about right now is that I don't find anything interesting.I dreamt about traveling. I dreamt about start-ups, I dreamt about Mount everest. I don't enjoy things. No, I don't...All that's left in me is fears. Of unknowns. 

I don't like to step out from home, Every day Monday to Friday I'm working morning till night. But I miss some excitement in life.I know, I know that. This is also I desired to always remain neutral. To not be too excited nor be too sad. And maybe that's the right growth. But I'm also coming to realize that without excitement, I just cannot do anything.

I do not find anything worth doing...

I don't know how will i come out of this... and feel strong again...