He has let me go so many times, each time dressing it up with a beautiful excuse: for the sake of freedom, free love, love from afar, I’m letting you go but I still love you.
So many times he chose another woman, always justifying it as for the sake of other things.
I ask myself: how many times has he told her: “I love you,” “I want to save what we have,” “I’m thinking about our future”, even though we had already been in a relationship…
Probably as many times as he has told me after: “I hope you meet a man who will love you, but know that I love you and that could break my heart.”
Just as many times as he has wished for me not to see our shared future, because he had already promised it all to someone else.
And so here I am, asking myself: What am I supposed to do in this? How am I supposed to keep living? What kind of love he has?..
He has confirmed his affection for me many times, but in practice, he has been strengthening his relationship with another. This creates a painful vicious cycle: I am constantly getting emotional crumbs instead of full commitment…